C.r.a.z.y
C.r.a.z.y is a song I came up with during a writing session when I intended to write a way less
serious song.
I came up with the hook, and tried to set it aside and start the song over with
a different concept but just could not come up with any other ideas.
I decided to write the full song to get the idea out and get the practice in, but
seriously doubted if I'd want to ever put it out.
After taking a break from the song for a while, I listened to the demo again
and fell in love with it. So, I decided to flesh it out.
Seshun made the beat for this song, and Ladi tracked guitar for it.
After much tinkering, we landed on a nice Tremolo effect for his guitar that gives it its unique feel.
I went out to Music in Focus studio to have it recorded, mixed and mastered.
Once we were in the studio, we were able to add in some clips from the Joker Movie.
I have since seen the musical sequel, which I could appreciate from a cinematic perspective, but
did not care for in terms of the story.
Much like that movie did not advance the plot much, this song dropped at a time that feels so similar to when the original movie came out.
I felt like election month may be a heavy moment and thus an appropriate time for a heavy song. I did not
realize I had scheduled it for the day the results would come in; and did not anticipate the results we had.
To be clear, they were not the results I wanted.
A lot of the inspiration behind this record, came from the previous Trump era.
Dennis filmed the video for this track.
We filmed it at Blackbird warehouse.
We shot it on a 100 degree day here in TX, the second time that summer.
Which is why I am sweating so much in this video. I do like what it does for the feel of the scene though.
A huge thanks to Dennis for always making it happen no matter what.
Hope you enjoy the track, and that you are taking care of yourself during these times.
Talk soon,
- Sin
P.S. I feel like I cannot put out a song like this without also sharing some resources if you do find yourself in crisis. The song is meant as a form of self expression, and not meant to encourage you to isolate yourself or discourage you from asking for help.
There is a list of resources compiled by the TX legend Megan Thee Stallion here: https://www.badbitcheshavebaddaystoo.com/
Lyrics
Hook
If I went crazy
I’d tell nobody
I’d keep this shit to myself
And could you blame me
When they need patients
To keep on payin the rent
And speakin frankly
I might not make it
To see a hospital bed
The enforcement arm
Of the dollar
Might see me cryin for help
As a threat
Verse 1
Screws loose
Up in my head
I know
I done seen some shit
Tryin so young
To self-destruct
Glad I never
Did enough
I’m cool now
Over it
Hittin the gym
And I’m sober its
Still some days
I don’t see the point
I know that the riches
Won’t bring me joy
But its somethin to do
Double tap
Get her snap
Now my thumb in your boo
Grab a wrap
From her bag
And I’m runnin the jewels
It costs too much
Just to live now
And you can’t afford
To go six down
So many traps
I could list out
Everyone else
Gettin rich
How many ways can you pay
To kill the pain
You ain’t create
More than I could name
Hands in your pockets
Like everyday
Not enough money
Left over to save
Bill the insurance
And pick out a grave
I could test out man
I studied the game
The dollars are stained
And who could you blame
Life don prescribed me
Some cynical frames
Some cynical frames (yeah)
Hook
If I went crazy
I’d tell nobody
I’d keep this shit to myself
And could you blame me
When they need patients
To keep on payin the rent
And speakin frankly
I might not make it
To see a hospital bed
The enforcement arm
Of the dollar
Might see me cryin for help
As a threat
Verse 2
But where else
Can you turn
Who else
Can you ask
Where else
Can you call
When you still
Ain’t okay
I ain’t Slept at all
Your family’s too far
Even though
I’m tryna be strong
I ain’t enough for you
To lean on
Wishin
I could make the bleed stop
Life left you
With a deep scar
I can’t leave you here
By yourself (No)
I can’t save you
All by myself (No)
I can’t leave you here
By yourself (No)
I can’t save you
All by myself (So)
Who the fuck
Should I call
And
What the fuck
Can I say
Tell em
You really need help
Even if you
Claim you’re okay
And
Even when you break
You can mask the pain
Try to bottle it up
But you can’t catch the rain
And the facts remain
I don’t understand
Nor can I relate
You scream in my face
And I cannot shake
I could not make you
Less afraid
I could not blame you
When you’d say
Hook
If I went crazy
I’d tell nobody
I’d keep this shit to myself
And could you blame me
When they need patients
To keep on payin the rent
And speakin frankly
I might not make it
To see a hospital bed
The enforcement arm
Of the dollar
Might see me cryin for help
As a threat
As a threat
As a threat